Let’s Not Talk About It

TW: graphic self-harm imagery

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Let’s not talk about my highs and lows.

Not because they shouldn’t be spoken of,

but because the way you talk of them is painful to me.

I am doing the best I can with what I have right now,

and your words cut deeper than I ever thought possible.

I still love you very much,

while at the moment it’s clouded by loathing for myself.

Imagine words are knives and I already have several.

They’re blunted with use and I have to press hard to make a cut.

You, in your frustration, present me with new knives.

I throw mine to the side and take up yours;

I will eventually blunt these, too, and await the arrival of new ones.

Like Prometheus’s liver, my skin grows back

but always scarred and gnarled.

You cannot punish me harder than I punish myself.

I will prove it to you.

So let’s not talk about it.

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Classical Singer & Amateur Prose Writer

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Classical Singer & Amateur Prose Writer

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